Friday, September 4, 2009

Numbness Envelops Me

This week has been shockingly disturbing. And I will not hesitate to say that it coule be very pivotal in changing me.
Murphy's Law has been proved 4 times over in a single week. I shudder to think of the couple of days still left. It seems every day is bringing with it something new to get depressed about.
Optimism? That's kind of hard to search for in the present state of affairs.
Your lies and deciet have a way of catching up with you when you least expect it. Of course, the reason WHY you lie is not what anybody cares to know.
I'd heard that it take 20 years to build a reputation and just 2 minutes to destroy it. The same holds true for Trust.
I trusted her. Blindly. She let me down. And I'll never forgive her for it. Because in that one instant all that was good just vanished and all that was left were her lame excuses and explanations. I have ceased to care.
He trusted me. Blindly. I let him down. He will never forgive me for what I've done. Because in that one instant, all the times I've cared vanished and all that was left were my hollow lies and shame. He has ceased to care.
I will give no excuses. Because there are none. I am at fault and there are no explanations to justify what I've done.
Strange how within 48 hours I've been on both sides of the situation. My smile's ironic now.
And I feel numb.


  1. I heard someone say TRUST is like china pottery glittery all the while it lasts! Once it breaks up, though can be mended by patching up- the crack stays and the leaks lurk deep in!!

    But then is life not about second chances? To find the hidden pleasures in leaky recess? Whats the life if served on silver platter?

    Not everyone is to be taken for granted!! Isnt it?

    P.S. I came in here to remind you of my blog and all I take away is retrospection! A good thing :) And reply to my mails!!

  2. oh yes...the cracks remain! I've heard that one too! Not very encouraging though!
    Haven't recieved any of your mails..

  3. Go check koshmachine ... IF it is something else lemme know :)

  4. just as life has a funny way of going on in circles, it also has a rather strange way of taking care of itsself...

    just let it!

  5. I totally agree with you Pri..."The universe has a way of course correcting"